I don't like them.

He sat on the couch in the apartment that they shared, it was a large penthouse apartment and while he could not honestly say why they shared it he knew that they did for all of his things were here. Currently though Shushi was in the bedroom getting something before going on out on his date with the man who was sitting there chewing gum snapping it and looking at him as if he was vermin.

"So how long have you known Sushi." the man said although it sounded more like just a random piece of conversation then an actual peice of conversation.

Eraba was sure he was going to find a way to hurt this man and narrowed his eyes. "I don't know." he answered honestly and he dind't he had no memories past waking in that room and Shushi telling him that they were partners nothing more.

Era looked at the man as he sat there and created several harsh burning hot items that the man because he was sitting were now seared into his backside the man yelped and jumped up only to find that nothing was there and Era looked at him as if to ask silently what was wrong.

The man continued like this looking about getting into things and annoying Era even more. He didn't like this, he didn't like this man anywhere near Shu but couldn't explain why.

And Shu seemed determined to keep his distance one of the things he found odd was that the spare bedroom was set up like an office when they had returned here and that could only mean that they shared a room only to have Shu tell him he usually slept on the couch.

Which only served to annoy him further and finally the man bolted before Shu reentered the living room leaving in a rush with Era reading a few public speaking documents for Sarubia and glanced at Shu shrugging.

"Why did he leave?"

"oh he left?" Era said as if just now noticing the absensce of the man that annoyed him wiht his mere pressence alone.

Eraba knew there was something more...."Why dam't......I know there is something more I can't remember it, I can't remember jack shit but my body remembers just fine so then why...." he said softly as he held onto the railing of the balacony off of his bedroomn and stared out at the sky. The cool metal held in a white knuckled grip as he stood there shaking his head. As his vision started to blur he could not help but feel like he was chasing after someone someting and that someone was Shu. When Shu but one of his 'dates' on the throat on the front and Era had seen it it caused the front of his throat to ach with a longing as if his body rememebred the action even if he could not.

"Dead star shine
Light up the sky
I'm all out of breath
My walls are closing in
Days go by
Give me a sign
Come back to the end
The shepherd of the damned

I can feel you falling away

No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever - and ever
the scars will remain
I'm falling apart
Leave me here forever in the dark

Daylight dies
Blackout the sky
Does anyone care?
Is anybody there?
Take this life
Empty inside
I'm already dead
I'll rise to fall again

I can feel you falling away

No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever - and ever
the scars will remain
I'm falling apart
Leave me here forever in the dark

God help me I've come undone
Out of the light of the sun
God help me I've come undone
Out of the light of the sun

I can feel you falling away

No longer the lost
No longer the same
And I can see you starting to break
I'll keep you alive
If you show me the way
Forever - and ever
the scars will remain

Give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood
Just give me a sign
there's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood
Just give me a sign
There's something buried in the words
Give me a sign
Your tears are adding to the flood

Forever - and ever
The scars will remain....".

Era hit his knees still holding onto the railing as he stared at the material covering his bent legs his breathing deep and heavy as one after another fell it hurt. Kyasha swore that there was something more there between them and Shu swore that it was nothing more then partners. But he wasn't sure who to believe Kyasha or Shu. Since he could not remember anything but he found that his body longed for and craved things that he'd witness Shu even starting to do to another and anger would boil up in him. It wasn't a craving or a wondering but an acutal longing to be touched in such a way a longing to feel it again and Era just knelt there his long platinum blonde hair pooling about him as if a feild of fallen pure white snow.

"I know......I know there is something more there this body tells me even if my damn mind won't remember anything..." Era said softly sadly as he bent more the only thing keeping him from completely curling up into a ball was his grip on the railing and then blinked when he heard clapping and turned standing there was another guy this one built like a brick wall.

"Hmm I came here to amuse myself with Shu, but your lovely and he's busy at the moment so I think I might play with you...instead. Pretty voice wonder how well you sing in other ways..." He said and before Era could move and get away from the railing the guy had ahold of his hair and jerked him around bending him over backwards while still on his knees and Era's mind went wide as painful very freaking painful fragments of memories flashes bits and peices that belonged to his heart and soul belonged to his body supplied him even if he coudln't figure out there meaning he hollared and struggled to fight his way past the painful flashes disconnected and making no sense to do something about the bastard of a man bending him in half.

He felt the chocker he wore snap loose as harsh fingers pulled more savagely on his hair jerking his head around. "Hmm seems that Shu has left his mark in your neck. Deep but one wouldn't see it unless they pulled your head back this way....." he said and proceeded to sink his fangs into the very same two marks making Era scream in agony at the sheer pain of having anothers mark violated on his frame. It hurt his voice echoing off of the walls even as the man ripped his clothes from him wrapped his hand around his length and began to violently for him to become aroused.

Era wasn't happy the sensations triggered memories within his body, within his soul of a time before he met up with the Yakuza and Shu of his past......

Pinned down as a man slammed violently into his body another having fun playng with his need while a third made him pleasure them orally, but if that wasn't enough he could feel someone during all of this slashing deep gouges into his frame. and then he hit hte ground after they had finished. One saying something about knowing his place and then everything shifted and things were when he knew Shu and then shifted again everything was a horrible jumbled mess.

At some point the man had let go of his throat while he was going through his own personal nightmare, flipped him around and then shoved himself without warning inside slamming into him and not giving him time to adjust only a minute maybe two since the man had bitten down on Era's neck and now this having fun as he violently took him smirking the entire time.....until he was grabbed and violently thrown backwards into a wall hard enough that the foundation cracked but Era didn't hit the floor even though he was so close his slender frame falling sideways into the waiting arms of another.

"You fool....what have you done?" Shu asked in a low dark angry tone looking at the man.

"Enjoyed myself Shu, you should try it once and a while."

It wasn't that he heard Era's scream of terror...it was that it was already to late unless he could find a way to shatter whatever was happening without removing his memories because as far as Shu knew there was nothing left to cause this. Era's eyes were open wide and his breathing heavy and irregular and it took Shu back to when Eraba had first joined them the amount of nights that he woke in a cold sweat. When he started taking things away from him rewriting him at some point he wrote this out as well. But Shu closed his eyes holding him as spires of crystal and stone began to punch there way out of pavement and into the sky climbing fast. As Era was forced to live through a jumbled mess of a nightmare pain and more pain beating and raped....since a small child. Going to the club to sing to make a little bit of money to live a bit longer and then things changing.....Shu rolled him over a little and looked at him, there was no sign of Era's eyes they were open but the entire eye socket was filled with what looked like glowing liquid mercury.

Era's mouth open in a silent scream and Shu closed his eyes.....as he fought down the very impusle to rewrite him and make this stop. But he did open them to look at the man and scowled. "You'll be lucky if I don't kill you for this one." he said pissed off and glanced up as the spires were shooting through the sky now heading straight towards Tsuin Sekai all he needed was Aoi saying that they declared war on him....when that wasn't it at all.

Shu held him and closed his eyes before looking at him as each moment passed as seconds folded themselves out stretching to become deceptively long minutes and those minutes into even longer hours and hours into eternity. Shu sat there as all of this occured within a matter of three seconds and yet one could not convince him of that.

But they say that once the ball starts falling that as it gains momentum it does even more damage on the way down, the steam roller effect one careless act had upon his soul upon lEraba's soul had done it's job as things were become even more of a mess as his body was releasing the sealed memories faster then his mind could proccess them. The thin control almost none existant that he still held over his power slipped through his fingers as his body lifted into the air glowing, hanging there limp as if nothing more then a rag doll. Spikes shooting out of and through already present objects but those same spike were forming beneath Eraba as he floated there. But that wasn't the worst of it as Shu watched fighting with himself over what he knew he had to say, had to do. Watching as gaping wounds were created tearing there way through his body, through Era's body, points of spikes beneath him fully formed and ready to shot into the the air piercing him.

Shu fought with himself battled with the knowledge that now there was only one way to stop all of this to put an end to it. To shatter the chaos running wild in Eraba's soul and yet he hesitated he told no one he loved them, he loved no one like that, he wanted to be loved but he loved no one or so he wanted to tell himself. But he did love Era, when Taki had told him that Era stayed basically because deep down he loved him Shu had felt regret for all he had done and he never regreted things like this and closed his eyes battling struggling with himself shaking his head no and opened them in time to see the spikes beneath Eraba suddenly shoot up as if fired from a gun at speeds that left little to no room to think little to no room to say or do anything and yet three words spilled there way past his lips. Three simple words that would hold more power for him than any other power out there.

"I love you." Shu said in a rush and they shattered the spikes moments before they impacted with Era's frame, having been so close they scratched his back and yet they were now nothing more then dust. The spikes around them that were reaching up through the sky everything broke apart falling apart and into dust as Eraba fell limply into his arms and he held him shaking his head looking at the odd power ridden eyes as he reached up to cup the side of his face.

"I love you." Shu said softy lowly having lost to that one now, and now that he had he could not take it back.

Era had heard the words and everything quieted down as his powers relaxed and images still played like a horribly chopped up picture show in slow motion and the glowing eyes closed as he fell asleep and Shu sighed in silent relief lifting Eraba into his arms and walking into his bedroom laying Era down on his bed before shaking his head and turning to face the man who he grabbed the shirt front of pushed him back out on the balacony and slammed him there bodily. "Your ass is dead....." which was about all of the warning he gave before he twisted the man's frame around into a position that would be utterly painful for this and sank his fangs into the flesh drinking deeply.

Shu finished off the fool who had done this to him. And looked at the mess before him shaking his head and walking back into the bedroom looking at Era who laid there and reached out hestating with his hand above his head when those eyes opened and although they were no longer glowing they were still consumed by that odd silver mess his breathing was weak and labored and tears still flowed down his face.

Era whispered softly. "Stop them....onegai make it all go away.....I can't....I can't....take it." Every day in the past had been a cotemplation in ending it all and the only peace he had known....was ironically enough when Shu rewrote him but it was all coming back with a vegenance. His body racked wiht remembered pain. "Onegai....Shu...."

Shu closed his eyes his hand falling down to his side to see him like this...."All right...."

"Thank....thank you....." Era said and closed his eyes stiffening as memroies ran wild so very real like it was just happening now. "I....I love you too......" Era said softly lowly and closed his eyes as he had never said it before now....never once told him.....and should have. But at least he told him now.

Shu kept his eyes close and began the process. "I know Era..." he said lowly as he let it all be rewritten, everything, all except one thing. The words Shu spoke and who Shu himself was. The rest was gone, and Era was now a small infant. Shu would give the child to a family who could raise him right, and he hoped that one day, he could see Era without any pain.

The last thing he had given to Shu before becoming an infant was a sad but warm smile and then fell asleep small innocent and tiny on the bed.

~*~