Business as usual

Kuri met the man who came all the way to Japan for a business meeting with his brother. The accent was thick and Kuri didn't speak a lick of German so talking was slow between them but he had come with him and he lead him through Chi Aka Yuki while the club was closed for cleaning tonight and up to his brothers office. Upon entering with him they were greeted by the sight of Misute sitting on Sarubia's lap attempting to read Kanji and biting his lower lip as he was still struggling with it. He was dressed adorably as always.

"Saru-nii." Kuri said stepping aside to let the man walk in and meet Sarubia.....this was going to be complicated one of the guys form downstairs had been translating but Kuri had no idea he was translating things half assed and coming close to highly insulting the man who he escorted here which would not amuse Sarubia. The punk claimed he spoke German well.

Axel stepped into the room, hands clasped neatly in front of himself as he looked at them all and nodded to them all in a very rigid, formal manner. He was dressed in a dark blue suit, the tie accenting it well. He wore black dress shoes and his white hair was braided and up in a bun. He was dressed highly formal as opposed to Sarubia who was dressed as casual as he always was.

"Excuse me for the interruption," Axel said lowly, but politely as he looked at Sarubia and Misute speaking in German as Japanese was not a language he was fluent in at all. "I didn't know you were busy," he said.

Kuri moved off to the side not sure what he said he didn't know a lick of German. The punk looked at them and spoke translating as he did since picking him up. "He said sorry for bothering you and that your wasting his time."

Misute paused. "No he didn't...." Misute whispered lowly looking up at the man who translated so poorly....then bit his lower lip and looked up at Sarubia. "He asked that you excuse his interruption and said he didn't realize your were busy." Misute had glanced up only for a moment before looking back down....he spoke German fluently......and Japanese....but had only begun to learn a little bit of how to read German when he was thrown into the dark.....he never told Sarubia though because he was never asked about his past before the slave trade.

Axel gestured towards the couch near the door. "Would it be alright if I sit while we discuss things? I've been standing for a rather long while today and I'm afraid my feet are tired," he said as he still stood there, hands clasped in front of himself.

Misute looked at Axel as he spoke. Then glanced at the punk and Sarubia before looking down again. Kuri was watching he didn't know German and wished he did at the moment. This man who had been so relaxed when he got here was now rigid.

The punk looked at him as Axel spoke and gestured. He looked at Sarubia as he stood there leaning against the wall. "He said he was expecting a better reception for a business meeting and if your done wasting his time and screwing around with your little pet he'd like to sit down and get down to business with what he thought...was a talented business man..." The punk said.

Misute went wide eyed as he looked at the book in his lap from where he was sitting on Sarubia's lap. That wasn't what this man said at all but he'd been told countless times that he was to not get involved in the business dealings that wasn't his place his place was simply to be by Sarubia's side. But....he looked up at Sarubia afraid he'd upset him if he spoke out of turn but also worried that if he didn't speak up something really terrible would happen here. Misute staring at the page mouthed the no that wasn't right......that wasn't right at all he looked up at Sarubia......trying to get the courage to speak up trying to.....stop this before something happened that couldn't be undone.

Sarubia narrowed his eyes and gently put Misute down as he stood and straightened himself up. Dressed as a businessman he was not, but he was well versed in business and economy, even if it was his own personal economy. "The hell was that you say?" he asked lowly as he stood there, his anger rising.

Axel stood there, hands in plain sight as he looked at them in confusion. He was certain he hadn't said anything wrong. All he had done was say hello and then ask if he would be allowed to sit. Why was the Yakuza leader getting angry all of a sudden?

The punk leaned against the wall smirking. Misute could feel Sarubia's anger. After gently being set down. He stood not supposed to get involved he knew that.....but....this man was about to be hurt for something he didn't do wrong. "He didn't say that!" Misute said standing quickly then looked at between them before looking at Axel. He switched to German..he had never thought he'd speak in it again....but. "Sarubia..." Misute got up and moved placing his hand without thinking on Saru's arm. "He never said anything like that.....he...asked pardon for interrupting and if he could sit because he'd been on his feet all day....he never insulted you.......he's been polite." Misute was speaking to Sarubia in a rush trembling it wasn't like him to be so forward and he was afraid he'd upset Sarubia by butting in. Then glanced at Axel and spoke in German his it accented from the region he was from Black Woods region in Baden-Württemberg southern Germany. "Please pardon us a moment.....he hasn't been correctly um...translating?" he paused hoping that was correct even as he stood there shaking not because he was afraid of Saru but because he had put himself dead center of everything..."What....what everyone has....been saying." Misute said it perfectly.......it was natural...he was after all born there......

Sarubia stopped and looked at Misute who had taken a bold initiative. "Fine..." he said lowly but looked at the punk who had been overstepping and mistranslating. "You," he said as he pointed to the punk. "you will apologize properly once this deal is over. Run, and I will send one of my men after you..."

The punk blanched and nodded before slinking back against the wall he had no idea at all that the brat could speak German.

Misute stood there still shaking and closed his eyes he wasn't although it appeared that way afraid of Sarubia. He wasn't the forward type at all meeting someone always made him nervous but not only was he speaking up but he was talking to someone from Germany. "Saru....is...is it alright to allow him to sit?" He asked lowly...

Sarubia nodded as he moved back to his own seat and sat back down. "He can sit." he said lowly as he sat back down and looked at Axel who remained standing until he was told otherwise.

Axel looked at Misute and nodded to him in a polite gesture. "Thank you for speaking up child. I was afraid that my communications would break down before they even began." he said lowly.

Misute looked up at him after Sarubia had agreed. "Saru said it's alright to sit..." He said as he wrapped his arms about himself. "You...you're welcome....I...couldn't let it happen. You weren't saying anything wrong...." Misute looked back to Sarubia and then lowered his gaze to the floor again closing his eyes. This was so nerve wracking he wanted to cry but kept that under control for the moment he had never thought he'd speak in his father's tongue again. He started to reach up to brand on the side of his neck a bad habit on his part when he thought about that man even a moment he'd claw at it and it would heal back up just fine. He was afraid of that side of his family and what connections they may or may not have there.

Axel nodded and sat and crossed his leg and neatly folded his hands in his lap and looked at them both. "I've been attending business meetings all day, and so I figured it a fair time to come and pay a visit to the mighty Sarubia in order to have one last business meeting," he said lowly as he looked at them.

Sarubia looked at Misute. "Misute," he said lowly, sternly. "We don't pick at things on our bodies. It's not polite," he said and looked at Axel who sat so neatly on the couch there. There was something dark about that man though. He didn't smell right.

Misute blinked and let his hand lower. "Gomen ne." He breathed and glanced at Axel as he spoke. He looked up and took a shaky breathe. "He said 'I...I've been...." he paused taking a breath.....but he was having a terrible time with this.

Kuri knew it might get him punished later but he walked up and placed a hand on Misute's shoulder and guided him back to Sarubia's side making him sit down again with Sarubia. Then whispered in his ear that whatever it was he was afraid of could not touch him so long as he was with Sarubia. Misute closed his eyes and took a deep breathe calming a bit. Then began to translate again. "He said...'I've been attending business meetings all day, and so I figured it a fair time to come and pay a visit to the mighty Sarubia in order to have one last business meeting'...." Misute spoke looking at his hands as he sat there clasping them on his lap.


Kuri moved back to his place next to the door and the punk wisely stayed put having not been dismissed.

"Wonderful," he said as he leaned back a little in his seat and looked at Axel. "I'm curious as to what someone like you would want with me...after all, you seem pretty successful on your own," he said and looked from Axel to Misute who wasn't looking at anyone or anything. "Misute," he began lowly, but it wasn't as abrasive as before. "If you don't look at him, he will never not be scary to you."

Misute looked up and at Sarubia his pale crimson eyes going a bit wide as he looked at Sarubia. "I...." he said but Kuri had just said nothing will happen to him in Sarubia's presence he sounded absolutely certain of that as if Sarubia was unstoppable. Instead of frightening him on that thought he slowly nodded and took a deep breathe from his place with Sarubia. "I...alright." he said lowly and closing his eyes took a deep breathe and slowly turned his head to look at Axel it wasn't that he did anything wrong. He opened his mouth to speak and nothing came out for a moment but clutching his hands he tried again. Then...repeated what Sarubia said while looking at Axel. ""Wonderful....I'm curious as to what someone like you would want with me...after all, you seem pretty successful on your own,"

"Successful yes, but that isn't what I want..." he said as he switched the order of his legs, uncrossing and crossing them once more. "While I may make the money I need to support my lifestyle, I don't eat nearly enough..." he mused lowly. "I'm afraid I don't enjoy the upper crust life as much as my father did...they're rather boring..." he mused lowly.

Sarubia placed a gentle hand on Misute's head and ruffled his hair. "I promise he's not a vampire....and he won't try to enslave you....he has no interest in that sort of life. I can already tell..." he said as he looked at Axel when he began speaking again.

Misute nodded as he leaned into Sarubia taking a deep breathe. "I'll try." He said softly try to handle this try to not shake try....but it was easier with Sarubia right there. He looked up at Axel and then glanced at Sarubia and translated for him. Misute wanted to let his head rest against Sarubia take comfort in his presence even as he spoke. But....this was supposed to be professional...he didn't know how this all worked.

"Eat?" Sarubia questioned lowly but snapped his fingers. "Now I get it. Makes more sense now that I think about it...but for you to be so rich, you must be a higher rank than I've seen before...which means you're from the nobility," he said as he began to put two and two together. "What exactly are you looking for from me?" he asked lowly.

Misute blinked and jumped a bit but continued to curl against Sarubia as he looked over at Axel and conveyed Sarubia's words to Axel as he spoke he remembered what Sarubia said and looked at him.....but he was still afraid.

"In exchange for feeding me, I will partner with you to provide the technology that you'll be needing to up your game," Axel said as he looked at Sarubia. "As CEO, I have access to everything you could possibly imagine. All the technology you could ever ask for is at my disposal," he said.

"Oh?" Sarubia mused lowly as he smiled. A rather coy, and dark expression. "In exchange for gathering how many to feed you?" he asked lowly.

Misute conveyed the words that Sarubia asked looking at Axel and back again before looking up puzzled as he said that.....how many to feed him.....

"I simply ask for five," Axel responded lowly as he looked at Sarubia and Misute. "I'm not a glutton. As long as I've had my fill, all will be well..." he explained.

Sarubia chuckled lowly as he leaned forward to look at Axel as he was speaking, curious and excited to hear his response. "All of the technology I could need....that would be nice..."


Misute told Sarubia what Axel said just five.....and back at Sarubia whose eyes almost seemed to be sparkling at the idea of the tech. He looked at them doing as he was supposed to and conveying everything word for word....He knew he wasn't in a world of light with them. But....eat his fill....and five people where what were they talking about? Killing five people but Saru said he wasn't a vampire...and neither Saru nor himself had to kill anyone.....the lights flickered in the room he was already frightened and scared and trying to deal with it but....this conversation wasn't helping him. The office went darker.....the lights dimming...he had no control over that aspect of his powers yet....not like he should at least. As they dimmed his appearance showed illusions of the difference in himself. After translating he chewed his lower lip.

"Misute," Sarubia said lowly, sternly, yet gently. "Calm down. He's not going to be killing anyone," he said and looked back up at Axel. "A Grimm who wishes to be fed by me while he's in Japan...this is indeed interesting..." he mused lowly as he looked at Axel.

"Misute," Sarubia said lowly, sternly, yet gently. "Calm down. He's not going to be killing anyone," he said and looked back up at Axel. "A Grimm who wishes to be fed by me while he's in Japan...this is indeed interesting..." he mused lowly as he looked at Axel.

"I could make the technology happen as soon as tonight if you can uphold your end of the deal," Axel said as he looked at them. "If you cannot...you won't see a single piece of the technology."

"ye...yes." He said lowly to Sarubia's calm down....Misute was attempting to do what he was told but his was all new to him....a Grimm he had no idea at all what that was. It wasn't that he didn't believe Sarubia. He looked up but the room didn't go dark nor did the lights return as he focused on breathing and conveyed there conversation back and forth. What each were saying. But closed his eyes trying to regain his center....trying to calm back down.

"In order to live, I need much darker sin...unfortunately the upper crust life just doesn't feed me like it did my father. Perhaps it's because I'm not as eco-friendly as my father was..." Axel began lowly. "Regardless of why, their sin is just...too light."

Sarubia nodded slightly as he listened. "I can easily hold my end of the deal. If nothing else, I can use my men to feed you..." he said lowly. "There's no real problem on my end, as such, I don't see why I can't go forwards with this deal Mr....what was your name. I don't think I caught it..."

Misute conveyed everything back and forth not looking at Axel know he couldn't and maintain what little bit of control he had but or did he look at Sarubia it was all he could do to keep hold of everything as he stammered along the translations.

"Speaking of my men to feed you..." Sarubia mused lowly and looked over at the punk and motioned for him to come to him. "Come here."

"Dominik. Axel Dominik is my name," he responded lowly when he understood that his name was being asked for. "For the sake of our upcoming partnership, you can call me Axel." he said as he looked at Sarubia.

The punk paled as he was being offered up. "Shit are you kidding me??" He said shaking his head and looking warily at Axel. "I'm in no mood to be anybody's tasty treat."

Misute started to translate and repeated the name.....speaking but his voice broke on Dominik. The name....in order for his father and there family to run the castle and keep it out of being found the tech and magic there....the partnerships. They hadn't been there that day heck he only ever saw the man in passing back then and never spoke to him but.....he finished the translation in a barely audible whisper....they had never touched him heck he didn't even know if this was the same people what....and it wasn't like he did anything threatening. But....the room went pitch black. Kuri rose an eyebrow.....he could not even see his hand before his face but it was the sort of darkness the Black Forrest was known for....

"I'm dead serious you little shithead!" Sarubia said as he narrowed his eyes. "I won't repeat myself..." he told the punk lowly, coldly.

Axel pursed his lips when Sarubia offered up the punk who had been causing so many problems. "How amusing," he said lowly, switching to English. "Offering me something so soon was unexpected, but I'll happily take your offer as a showing of good faith..." he said lowly as he motioned for the punk to come to him as he sat there on the couch,

The punk scowled. "Are you freaking kidding me? I'm not going to be someone's damn meal....." He paused as the sound of a gun barrel clicked into place the cold metal against the back of his head.
"Move." Kuri said simply lowly. Sarubia gave him an direct order it was not to be disobeyed. The punk not happy moved over to the couch not wanting to be shot dead by Kuri who....would without a second thought pull the trigger.

Misute while Axel had switched to English had gotten up off of the couch moving away from Sarubia in the office and into the corner where he closed his eyes and tried to simply deal with all of this. Chances are by the time this was done he'd have irritated Sarubia but he dropped down in the corner and sat there knee's drawn up. This was the world he had willingly stepped into.

Axel uncrossed his legs and stood up to hover just before the punk. "You're full of it...that beautiful dark that I love..." he mused lowly as he looked into the punk's eyes. "Such a lovely color, that blackness in your soul..." he said as he leaned in closer and closer until their lips met and he pulled back, pulling out a black smoke like substance, but it was thicker than smoke and darker than anything anyone had ever seen.

When he had finished, Axel patted the punk on the cheek. "Now for a while you'll be a docile little kitten...that should please your boss rather well..."

Sarubia had watched in dark amusement as Axel fed off of the punk's sin. He had been leaning in as if he were going to fall off the edge of his seat. "My my...how amusing...to see one of your kind feeding in such a way..."

The punk was not haughty anymore not full of ego or temper but stood there quickly that arrogant jeer gone. Kuri stood in the room watching and noting how his brother like always found something absolutely intriguing.
Misute looked up hearing what they said....but not understanding it having seen it as well....he had seen that before......he knew he had.....it was getting late he knew that and they were dealing with business but.....it was all to much....he come back up here in a bit but.....he moved rushing from the room he didn't understand and down the stairs before going out the back door hands on his knees breathing heavy.

Kuri hadn't been able to stop him.....while it was true he didn't move as fast as Zero the boy had moved faster then Kuri could respond unless he grabbed and used Misute's powers.

Misute once outside covered his mouth he didn't usually see this. Sarubia usually kept him out of it but he knew why he saw it today had a part of it today he had gotten upset not too long ago that he had been left at the bar. He felt tears fall.....he had to get tougher and he knew it....to handle this he had to....

"I will personally deliver the technology that you will need tomorrow evening," Axel said as he straightened his clothes up, smoothing them out and adjusting his tie. "I hope you will not disappoint me Sarubia Hotogoroshi...because if you do...I will not rest until you pay your debt..." he said as he turned and made his way to the door and then out of it.

Sarubia hadn't had time to respond to Axel's words, his frustration was more with Misute and so was his mind. "Damn him!" he said as he slammed his fists down on his desk. "How can I do business like this?!"

Kuri looked at his brother. "He was fine. Until he started speaking German Saru-nii.....and he didn't panic until he heard Axel Dominik's name....I don't think he meant to upset you at all but rather it has something to do with the small bit of his past before he was sealed in that cell. This world our world....is all new to him Aniki." Kuri looked at his brother. "The more he spoke in German....the more unsettled he became."

Misute stood out there he was as he always was at the hours of twilight he felt so sick to his stomach he had never wanted to speak his fathers tongue again but hadn't wanted Axel to get in trouble for things he didn't say and then hearing his name. For the short time he had been with them...he knew they provided tech but he didn't know how far there contracts went. Misute dropped to his knees and sat there covering his mouth he had to....find a way to deal with this.

"When it comes to darkness...I can't help but be attracted to yours boy," Axel said as he stepped into the light a safe distance away from Misute. "Your self doubt, your self loathing, the fear, the pure hate for yourself...is so enticing..." he mused lowly. "For one such as myself who thrives on the sin, the darkness in another's soul, yours is creating a tantalizing concoction..."


Sarubia screamed in anger and frustration and pushed everything off of his desk and into the floor and against the wall. It didn't matter so long as he could break things. "Fuck!"


Misute heard his voice and lifted his head turning it his eyes were that odd silver faded into Crimson the slits focused on Axel. He understood him just fine. Standing he knew he could not move into the shadows and disappear right now nor could he run through the light. Now was when he was the most vulnerable. "Stay away from me." Misute answered him all of those dark emotions and they were indeed steam rolling inside of him and more....the closer to night fall if he couldn't get ahold of himself they'd become worse he was a Twiilight vampire a 'dark' vampire....the hate...fear....anger all emotions he had always worked.........to keep far away from himself to never be like that. Even as the silver and black nails on his hand began to lengthen he didn't want this man coming near him.

Kuri frowned as Sarubia hit things on his desk...."Saru...." He said lowly.

"I assure you, I won't feed from you. I've had my fill for the night," he said as he made no move to go forward or back. "I've simply come to thank you for translating for me tonight...and to warn you that you should get yourself under control..." he said. "If you don't get control of your own self doubt, it will rule you...and it will ruin you my boy..."

Sarubia glared at Kuri. "Don't say it," he said lowly. "I don't want to hear it," he said as he rested his head in his hands and closed his eyes. He was tired and frustrated. He was always taking two steps forward and ten steps back it seemed. "I feel like I'm doomed to keep going nowhere..."

Misute looked at him. 'Your welcome. I couldn't allow things to go bad because of the way he was translating." Misute's nails shortened in length as he stood there when Axel made no motion to come closer to him. "I'm trying to.....but...." He said to his words to get control of that. He reached up and brushed off his eyes closing them for a moment.

Kuri looked at Sarubia as he said that...that he didn't want to hear it. "I wouldn't say that. Misute calmed and tried to draw strength from being near you when I told him he'd be safe as long as he was with you....everything fell apart though when he heard Axel's name which I'm repeating and I'm sorry...." Kuri held up his hand. "But...at the end there when Misute lost control of the dark aspect Axel wasn't at all surprised to see his appearance change and was in a rush to leave the moment Misute left the room."

Misute looked at him. 'Your welcome. I couldn't allow things to go bad because of the way he was translating." Misute's nails shortened in length as he stood there when Axel made no motion to come closer to him. "I'm trying to.....but...." He said to his words to get control of that. He reached up and brushed off his eyes closing them for a moment.

Kuri looked at Sarubia as he said that...that he didn't want to hear it. "I wouldn't say that. Misute calmed and tried to draw strength from being near you when I told him he'd be safe as long as he was with you....everything fell apart though when he heard Axel's name which I'm repeating and I'm sorry...." Kuri held up his hand. "But...at the end there when Misute lost control of the dark aspect Axel wasn't at all surprised to see his appearance change and was in a rush to leave the moment Misute left the room."

"But nothing," he said lowly as he looked at Misute. "You're in danger every waking moment you can't control yourself. For as powerful as he is, that vampire wouldn't stop others who are more dangerous than I am," he said as he put his hands into his pockets. "I'm not as powerful as some of my kind...and I'm certainly not as cruel...but others who aren't of the Grimm are twice as cruel and twice as powerful...I don't want to see them harm someone like you...you don't deserve that..."

Sarubia shot Kuri another glare. "Don't you think that I can see?" he snapped coldly. "I saw just as well as you did, but my hands were tied. I can't stop a business deal just because he's having a break down!"

Misute looked at him and then down. "I hear what your saying.....but I don't know how. There's such a small window....very small of memory when I knew any sort of happiness...." He frowned he had very little with his brother not as much as he'd like but he certainly didn't fear Haru. But his happiest memories were with Sarubia. He looked up at Axel. "You knew....where I was from since the start....but more then that...you know what I am.....and where I'm from.....so you know more about the clan?" It was clear by his tone he had no idea how his father's clan was.....not really....nor did he know he had a chance to climb out of that darkness they dwelled in happily. If he didn't do what his father and the elders were hoping for.....and let the dark consume him.

Kuri looked at Sarubia and sighed. "I'm aware of that Aniki." He said looking at his brother. "I just get the feeling we're missing a piece of the puzzle."

"Being half German, I spent most of my childhood with my mother. My father, who was an American businessman was...unpleasant to say the least...but he was always working with many different factions of many different races...your clan was one in which I remember well..." Axel answered as he stood there in the light. "Your clan was...as unpleasant as my father was to say the least...all except one child who seemed rather...lumpish..." he said lowly.

Sarubia put his head in his hands again and closed his eyes. How was he ever going to deal with this? He couldn't keep doing this. He wasn't a very patient man, and he was certainly not one who could hold his temper. If this kept up...he was certain things would be ruined.

Misute looked at him. "I only ever saw him from a distance I wasn't allowed to get close." he shook his head then looked down at his hand. "I was punished for being as they called born wrong.....and finally given a name." He looked up at Axel. "I knew there was someone with him but I wasn't ever really allowed to interact with anyone because........there was something wrong with me."

Kuri sighed as he looked at Sarubia. "Sarubia....I'm saying I got the feeling......that they knew each other. That outside of us he knew Misute was a Twilight the moment he saw him. He's been handling everything else up to and including meeting Mujo So without having a breakdown but he did now? I can't help but feel like it's someone from his past.........because I'd react that way if it was one of our elder brothers or someone else who.......had anything to do with our past. Especially years ago when you first freed me form it.....if I thought whoever walked through that door could force me back into it."

Misute looked at him. "I only ever saw him from a distance I wasn't allowed to get close." he shook his head then looked down at his hand. "I was punished for being as they called born wrong.....and finally given a name." He looked up at Axel. "I knew there was someone with him but I wasn't ever really allowed to interact with anyone because........there was something wrong with me."

Kuri sighed as he looked at Sarubia. "Sarubia....I'm saying I got the feeling......that they knew each other. That outside of us he knew Misute was a Twilight the moment he saw him. He's been handling everything else up to and including meeting Mujo So without having a breakdown but he did now? I can't help but feel like it's someone from his past.........because I'd react that way if it was one of our elder brothers or someone else who.......had anything to do with our past. Especially years ago when you first freed me form it.....if I thought whoever walked through that door could force me back into it."

"To tell the truth, I rather expect there to have been a problem with the other child...he was slow and only took commands if he were given them..." Axel said lowly. "Outside of responding to commands, he did nothing but sit silently and wait to be commanded...and after a few months, he simply vanished..." he said.

"Just shut up..." he said lowly, but it wasn't in a harsh tone, it was one of fatigue. He was tired, confused and frustrated. What he wanted the most right now was to go home and lay down, to unwind and sleep. But he couldn't simply leave Misute.

He was describing....."Haru disappeared?" Misute said going wide eyed and shook his head. "He was never slow....he just didn't like them....he was always kind to me and asked me to........." Misute paused......then looked up at him. "To never loose my warm smile it made the dark more tolerable. He never cared I couldn't give him my name or I didn't have one....just that he could make me smile when I was around him." Misute said softly. "That it was alright I didn't have to be anything but me."

Kuri sighed as he moved and sat down on the chair. Crossed his legs and looked up at the ceiling. If he searched for Misute's power he was just out back outside of the door but that was as far as he searched.

It was funny they were talking about Haru.....about his family and yet his thoughts traveled away from that to another. As he stood there the 'j' had been fading and the torn tear beneath his right eye slowly become black with the darker feelings he had been falling into.....but Axel was speaking with him and telling him he had to get control of his emotions. But it wasn't his emotions he was thinking about. He remembered Sarubia telling him to feel everything, he remembered so much from there short time together. That his name wasn't his curse but his blessing. And thinking about Sarubia warmed the cold self hate in his heart as he stood there with his head slightly bowed not looking at Axel part of him was still afraid but they weren't in a confined space he wasn't trapped and realized he hadn't been before he had left the room and no one stopped him. Sarubia's words that if he didn't look at Axel he'd stay frightening and scary. Misute looked up slowly and studied the taller man before him but as he did the 'J' reappeared and the jagged tear went from going black to the same as the 'J' faded in and solidified on his cheek bones a pale lavender. He had had to settle on who he was he had to figure out his emotions. His emotions....he walked towards Axel looking at him and closed the distance until he could just about reach out and touch him. And certainly visa-versa. "Thank you for speaking with me for telling me about Haru. But I'm going to return to Sarubia now. I'm sure he's upset and worried.....is there a time he should be expecting you?" He said figuring the business deal had been settled when he left the room and right now his thoughts were on Sarubia anyways.

Axel looked at Misute as he had moved so close. "I wouldn't rush into yet another situation where you will become afraid," he said as he stood there. "I have already informed Sarubia that I would return tomorrow with my end of the deal. Until then, he will have to wait."

Misute looked at him. "You're wrong....if I hesitate like I have been I'll never get past them. If I don't face my fears....I'll be consumed by them. No matter the emotions that run through me light or dark.......if I don't accept them all for what they are.......I'll become them." He looked at Axel. "Thank you for telling me about Haru but I'm going to take my leave." He said nodding.

"Be that as it may, running from them serves little purpose other than to make the situation much worse," he said as he turned and began to make his way back towards his limo. "Remember, facing your fears is all well and good, but the true courage is gained from standing your ground and learning from the situation," he said as he left Misute with those words.

Sarubia kept his head resting in his hands as he felt the turmoil trying to calm inside of himself. He was going to lose it at some point. He just knew it. He was trying so hard to be patient with Misute, but eventually he'd not be able to hold his temper. He would probably run Misute off then...

Misute nodded. "Thank you....I'll remember what you said." he said and then turned and headed back inside of the club. He walked through and up the stairs opening the door and seeing Sarubia there head on his desk like that....he walked through much to Kuri's surprise without hesitation and reached out placing a gentle hand on top of Sarubia's head.
"I thought I could handle my fears but everything collapsed on me.......and I ran." He spoke calmly looking at Sarubia. "But...running from my fears won't stop them....if I just face them I'll be overwhelmed by them.........I was afraid of him because I recognized his scent his father often came to the.......castle when I was there." Misute looked at him. "The room was so small and I felt so trapped and after I got out there the only thing trapping me was me."

Sarubia didn't move, he was still too upset and too tired to do much. "I can't say anything to you, I don't have anything to say," he said lowly, tiredly. "I honestly don't have the energy to be angry anymore. And I don't have the energy to be sad. I'm just too tired."

Misute let his hand rest there a moment longer before moving it. He was tired.......Too tired to be angry, not enough energy to be sad and he turned his head and looked at the door. Then looked down at the floor at the grand mess there. "Angry? Because I was afraid? Because I felt fear? I can't help that. It's a part of who I am." He looked at Sarubia's head. "Get angry....sad whatever!" he said as he swung his hand in the air. "I told you I wasn't going anywhere even if I have to fight through emotions I don't understand if I have to get past the darkness......inside of me that's fine. Yell at me whatever!" He looked at him. "YOU told me you wouldn't allow me to not feel fine.....but I won't let you give up and break and fade away on me either!"

He sighed and sat up, raising his head from his hands. "Shut up!" he exclaimed as he looked at Misute. "I wasn't upset because you were afraid! I was upset because you left me standing there like a fool!"

"Left you standing there like a fool?" Misute slammed his hands down on the table. "You have no idea the power the Kotachi family has in Germany who is in the employ they're in the darkness everywhere. There cold heartless an evil unlike any other." Misute looked at him. "I didn't leave to make a fool out of you. I left because if I didn't..........I'd loose control of the fear and hate in me of them of myself and destroy everything I care about. I left because I couldn't breathe and get control and I had to or I'd hurt you! Forget it." Misute closed his eyes as he stepped back. "I've been in the light only as long as I've been by your side. I've had a long time to fear the dark and those who dwell in it.....and when he said his name...I feared not just for myself but what they'd do you too....if they came here for me because he lead them here."

"I can't help how I feel," he said as he sat back in his seat. "I don't fear the dark because, if you've not noticed, I live in the darkness," he said. "Forgive me if I feel as if I was left to stand in the room as an important business partner but I couldn't understand half of what he was saying when he spoke in anything but English."

"I.......never wanted to speak in my father's tongue again." Misute said lowly. "I was terrified of him of any connection to him of what it would mean....if I accepted even the smallest part of him inside of me." He moved his hand and held it light and darkness in the room coming together to form a ball of twilight as Misute looked at it. "The nightmares I endured there as he screamed at me in German.....tried to beat any light of me any love so long as I had it he swore I would have no name..........but when he forced my powers to surface and they surfaced in the light.........emotions are worthless and un-needed......or so he said the one who insisted it was different was you......I spent all that time in the darkness learning how to not feel or go mad..." He looked at Sarubia. "And even though I was speaking to Axel I was facing a fear that was suddenly thrust in my face and I wasn't ready for it."
Misute looked at the sphere. "But.....Axel warned me.........that if I didn't get control of the darkness inside of me was on my way to becoming just like them........in the end it was my thoughts about you that allowed me to find my center." Misute closed his hand and the ball shattered. "Sorry I'm not the most ideal for business dealings.....I guess I'm pretty worthless after all."

"If I could have understood him, I would not have gotten so upset," he said lowly. "As for accepting parts of your father, parts of the darkness they made you into...I took my father's position as leader of the Yakuza. I took up the role I had been forced into by my family in order to save my brother. I became the very darkness I was afraid of..." he said as he looked at Misute. "I've killed, I've done worse...but not once did I stop to care about what I was doing. At least...not until Aoi forced me to take a second look at my life and where I was going..."

Misute shook his head. "I haven't had nearly as long and I wish fearing Axel was the only thing I feared about my past." He looked at Sarubia. "I don't sleep.......I can't if I close my eyes there's nothing but empty cold darkness......" He shook his head. "The only time that darkness wasn't so cold was with you.........only today.........I felt like I was back in that castle........I felt trapped." Misute looked away from Sarubia and looked at the window towards the floor below. He closed his eyes. Before opening and walking over to look down. "I felt like I was suddenly thrust back into that....you were in the room but I wasn't seeing you." Misute closed his eyes. "I won't burden you again like that............"

Sarubia slammed his fort down on his desk. "I've had it!" he exclaimed. "I can't listen to you say that you're a burden or a problem or a hindrance anymore!" he said. "You're doing nothing but pissing me off!" he said.

With that he stood up and walked around his desk. He had said he didn't have the energy to get angry, but he had been mistaken. "I'm sick of this. I'm tired of trying to get through to you that you're not a burden or a problem. I've done everything to show you this, but you keep saying it over and over! What more do I have to do to prove to you that I'm not lying?!"

Misute stepped down and turned to face him. He looked at Sarubia and closed his eyes as he could feel him his anger........his frustration the connection to him. But he clutched his hands and looked up at him near tears of frustration on his own part. "Stop PULLING AWAY from me!" He yelled.....angry as everything fluxed in the room. "Stop it! Stop telling me I'm not a burden stop telling me I mean anything to you then show me emptiness don't you get it! I can feel you or the lack of you! How can I possibly not be a burden to you if all I feel from you is emptiness? Is darkness! I'm bound to you! Even if your angry with me that's fine because your there it's not cold nothingness if that is all there is.......all that there is then why pull me from the empty darkness!!" Misute screamed at him in *anger*.........since finding him and his entire life he had never gotten.......angry with anyone.
Kuri looked about as light and shadow everything was going crazy with his emotions Misute was too young to have control if he lost it but.......the kid was screaming at Sarubia in anger.
"If I'm not a burden if I'm not some doll........or a toy to be cast off and played with then.......stop blocking the link! I NEED YOU.........to feel you. During that entire thing.......I couldn't feel you but I could see you........interacting with him. There was nothing...........I don't care what they are......what the emotions are........I need you."

"I don't have the ability!" he screamed. "I'm trying, but I've not been given the chance to feel a damn thing because I've not had a single moment to think, let alone feel!"

"You are now!" Misute yelled at him as he stood there looking at him. "For once since meeting you your not guarding anything from me! I can feel you your anger your frustration! For once......even if your angry with me......I....." He stood there shaking. "Feel like you actually want me here........like I'm not something you picked up on a whim."

"I don't know how to just open up and pour my heart out to people," he said as he lowered his voice finally. "I'm taking this in small steps. Guarding my emotions is how I protect myself. I'm not able to just run away from my problems because they're all up here," he said as he tapped his own head. "All of my problems don't exist outside of myself and I don't know any other way to cope with my own problems. You pushing things out of me only furthers my own problems. I've given you the one thing many can't get, why isn't that good enough of a start?"

Misute looked at him.......his problems were all up there.........he closed his eyes and let his hands go lax. "Fine." He whispered shaking his head and turned to look out the window of the office again. "I never said you had to run away from your problems Sarubia........but you are. You bottle them up shut them up inside so they eat you alive." He let his head drop against the glass. "And your wrong.......I don't expect anything. You asked why I keep saying I'm a burden....."
He sighed. "I know your running because it's the same thing I've been doing.......running from the dark........from them. From my past........we all run in our own way........." He shook his head. "Just......tell me what you want me and I'll try to conform........."

"You don't get anything I say!" he said as he stood there. "You want me to feel, but you don't want to give me the same chances I'm giving you. You want me to let you in, but I can't just open up like that. What part of a coping and defense mechanism do you not understand?" he asked.

"I'm so tired of everything turning into an argument. I just wanted to have you with me!" he said. "I can't keep arguing with you. I gave into my desires, but they were more than that. I don't just lay with who ever tickles my fancy. I don't know how much more I can say to get you to understand that."

"A coping and defense mechanism?" He turned and leaned against the glass. "Giving you the same chances......." He was trying desperately trying but at the coping and defense comment the room became devoid of any and all light as his heart fell into his stomach and his stomach into his throat. It was that pitch black room....devoid of any trace of light and sat down on the floor. He wasn't allowed to shut them down his emotions and right now this was how he felt. Cold isolated....hurting. He could not see Sarubia nor them him or even the hand before his face as he let his head drop onto his knees. "I've known you for all of what three four months? I spent the rest of my life darkness with nothing....with no one.....I don't expect anything anymore. I don't know how to respond to you.....you want me to feel but get angry with me.....if I feel like a burden because I can't feel you. I love you........I don't expect you to return my feelings Sarubia......I don't expect you to love me in return.......in the beginning I could feel your happiness when I learned something when I smiled it was there but faint.......now there's nothing not even that.....it was like the closer I got to you you suddenly slammed on the brakes."

"I still feel happy and excited, but I also feel afraid. And right now I feel very afraid. I'm in a position that I'm unfamiliar with, and I've not got anything to lean on. I can't get you to give any at all, and understand that I'm trying my best....I'm trying so hard but...you're expecting so much of me in such a short time...I don't..." he stopped though and closed his eyes. He didn't even know what he was saying anymore. Kuri wasn't offering any help, and no one else was around to help him. "I don't want to lose you, but I don't know what I feel at all right now...but it certainly isn't that you're a burden...I just...need time to be able to sort through my own feelings...and I'm not getting a break on any front..."

"Between work and teaching you and helping you, and now you saying that I have to let you in or I don't know what you'll do...I just can't keep doing things like this...I need to figure things out, and I can't do that if you don't want to give me that chance..."

Misute curled there in the dark as he spoke. His eyes open as he looked at the nothingness. "What I'll do? Nothing.........I'll stay by your side regardless......I'm not asking you to feel anything deep emotion for me Sarubia.......you don't have to let me in. You don't have to do anything." He sat there letting his forehead rest against his forearms. "All....I wanted needed was to feel wanted. It didn't matter the reason you....there didn't have to be any deeper feelings behind it. Take all the time in the world you need I'm not going anywhere..."

Kuri sighed as he listened to them he couldn't honestly give his brothers answers to this......as much as he wanted to it was something Saru needed to figure out for himself.

"There is no way in hell I would just do that with just anyone without any feelings at all," he said lowly, sternly. "I may be confused and struggling, but that I know for certain. I just need to figure out how deep those feelings go. I'm afraid of giving you a false sense of hope. If I don't have my head on straight and then I tell you that I feel one way, but then find out I don't...I'd kill myself after I told you something like that..."

Misute smiled a bit forlornly in the darkness. "Okay." He said closing his eyes a false sense of hope? He almost laughed bitterly at that one......he gave up on that a long time ago. This darkness seemed fitting. "Sorry I just need....a bit of time to get things settled....." He said as he sat there in the dark. "I....don't have the control of this element....that I should." It was still heavily intertwined with his negative emotions. "Sarubia.....I'm yours regardless......and hope....." He didn't finish didn't comment on it....in his short life he had been given to learn what hope meant for him......he hoped for nothing not even this man before him caring deeply about him at all. "I'll pull myself back together shortly."

Sarubia sighed and closed his eyes. "Kuri, get everything ready for us to go home...I've had enough for a while...it's time we go home," he said as he moved towards the desk again and sat down in his seat.

Kuri flinched. "Sure...." He said lowly as he got up and moved to go out and do as he was told. Sarubia wanted to go there. He walked out of the room.

Misute just closed his eyes and stood he finally got enough control to lift the darkness in the room....a false hope. He stood there holding one arm and staring blankly at the floor. His gaze traveling about the room and moved walking over and lifting the book..he had been studying.....trying to learn not that long ago. Hope....he glanced back at Sarubia and then walked to the door and sat down on the steps leading to the office but let the book fall into the bin near the door once out there he sat down and let his head fall to arms where were on his knees and there he cried silently. He had done this to himself........had asked this man fallen in love with him did he hope for anything in return? No......he never once in his life thought he'd ever truly have a place to belong.

Sarubia had sat there in silence until after everyone had left the room and then got up and moved to shut the door, but unbeknownst to him he hadn't shut it all the way, leaving just enough of a crack for the sound to carry. "Fuck!" he screamed in anger, throwing yet another vase against the wall, shattering it. But there wasn't any bite to his words, just a lot of pain and confusion. He slid down the wall as he stared at the broken vase and the mess his office was in, but the longer he looked the more his vision began to blur and they began to fall. One by one before he was there, curled up into himself, hugging his knees close and crying.

Misute heard the word and the sound of the vase smashing against the wall. He got up and entered the room Kuri wasn't there to check on him and looked down at Sarubia he was sitting there crying. He didn't even know how to put this man back together when he himself was such a mess. He had walked up and was looking down at him though........arms wrapped around his waist as he stood there.

"Everything I do...is wrong..." he whispered as he cried. Curled up there he looked exactly as he had all of those centuries ago when he was a child. Too young to run away and survive on his own, too young to be allowed to live on his own once his father found him...and too afraid to even try. Every method of communicating his thoughts, his feelings was wrong.

Misute wasn't a heartless being he wasn't the majority of his family even if he wanted to be able to fall into the dark at times he couldn't. He moved closing those last few steps and wither or not Sarubia accepted him he didn't know part of him was ready for rejection......it was the story of his life after all and knelt down wrapping his arms around this man who was crying they weren't long enough to completely engulf Sarubia but he hugged him never the less.....

Even if it was on instinct, his arms came up and wrapped around Misute, his hands gripping the back of Mistue's shirt in a death grip. "Why...can't I do anything right..."

Even if it was on instinct, his arms came up and wrapped around Misute, his hands gripping the back of Mistue's shirt in a death grip. "Why...can't I do anything right..."

Misute hugged him as he said that and closed his eyes. "It's not that you can't do anything right...." He finally spoke holding this man who was crying into him holding on for dear life. "I....have never had a place to belong....regardless of the reason....I..." he said lowly and closed his eyes. "Is it wrong....to just want to feel needed by you? it doesn't matter the reason or the feelings it hurts far more to feel nothing then to just that little bit." He said as his hand came up to rest in Sarubia's hair. "I'm not looking for you to love me or figure out everything....just....to feel needed wanted at your side.......the rest.........will work itself out later." Misute held him. "I can't sleep unless I'm at your side......there so much I depend on you for.....so much I take from you.....it's why....I fear I'm a burden to you because you don't seem to need anything.......not me not anything."

"You're wrong..." he said lowly. "I do need you...but I don't show it like you do...and when you don't understand..." he paused for a moment trying to collect himself a little. "It hurts...because I've been trying so hard...but it feels like everything I say and do just doesn't come out right..."

Misute looked at him as he said that he was wrong. That he did need him. He curled more into Sarubia holding onto him. Misute looked at Sarubia quietly a moment or two. He was sitting there in the hours of twilight.....as he was truly. "There's times.....a lot I don't understand..." He said in agreement as he closed his eyes. "Because I've never been wanted by anyone but you.....and I'm so afraid......that you'll stop wanting me....needing me. That.....you so far above me I'm struggling just to stay by your side....." Misute looked down. "I need you....for so much and it doesn't feel like I can even begin to give you anything in return and that's why you don't need me....." Misute was holding to him just as desperate. "That....I'm just in your way and interfering with everything making things harder for you....I....can't do anything for you."

"But you're wrong..." he repeated again. "And I can't make that anymore clearer until we go home..." he said lowly as he stayed there, clinging to Misute.